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Hello there. I make mediocre noises that combine into a cacophony of sound.

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Columbia College Chicago

Chicago, Illinois

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Posted by Deemo-R - October 23rd, 2019


It's a strange feeling, looking at your own work. I've always found it quite hard to see the whole picture when it comes to things I've operated on since their initial conception. Like many of us, being in our own heads, I struggle with what I can only describe as sporadic depression. I wouldn't outright call it depression unless it was from a professional's mouth, but it is an ongoing, consistent pattern of behavior that has held me back for a few years now. When I graduated from college, I realized that I had made no progress towards bettering myself at all - perhaps I had even just wasted a lot of time fumbling around in the same "one-hand-on-the-steering-wheel" state. That headspace eroded my creativity slowly, like a virus, until I started wondering if I ever liked music to begin with.


Frankly, I have never liked a piece of music that I created; all I can ever really focus on is what I dislike. Small flaws can (and likely should) be powerful motivators, but I tend to drown myself in the bottomless pool that they exist within. I've always operated without a clear goal and with little control over my artistic output. Ideas come and go at a brisk pace, and I often fail to capture the essence of any idea I start with. Even worse, I didn't really feel like I contributed a voice, or any sort of unique characteristic that could only have come from me. My poor lifestyle likely contributed much of what I felt in that regard. My ego was poisoning something which should have been beautiful: art. I didn't really want to be around it when I felt that way, and so I started to burn out more regularly and for longer periods of time.


Now, when I should be looking forward, I'm looking to course-correct. I need to fix myself as a person before I can go back out and be a writer again. As self-indulgent as this whole thing is, I just wanted to make on thing clear: take care of yourself. When you better yourself, your craft will follow suit. :)


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Posted by Deemo-R - June 6th, 2017


Hello, Newgroundertianbens!

As always, it has been a while since I last posted a News update. I've thought in the past that these would be best reserved for large developments, but as time goes along, I see it wasting away on the still waters of this account. Going forward, I'm planning to use this more often so that my account doesn't appear abandoned at various times throughout the year. 

First off, it's far past due time for me to give thanks to all of you that are following this account. I passed over 100 fans a while ago, which was something I was not expecting to happen at all this year. I recall, some time ago, being stuck at 19 for what seemed like eons - I feel like that's my favorite number now. I'm aware that this influx is in no small part due to the GD community, so I owe some thanks to you guys. I've been keeping up with all of the... er... issues regarding the game and Newgrounds, and it's nice to see that, to a certain extent, things have been sorted out (Yes, I have been lurking). I, of course, am grateful for the criticism and support of anyone who follows me (or doesn't). The talent of Newgrounds knows no bounds, so it can be hard to feel like you're really making a step forward when you're focused on everything else happening around you.

Speaking of that, I have also been really bad with reviews in the past year or two. By that, I mean I've hardly made any of them. I do observe and rate a lot of the content, especially of the people I follow, but I haven't really sat myself down and written even a short message of support in a while. I used to feel like I should hold my tongue unless I had some sort of insight to share, but that paradigm has proven to accomplish nothing other than dismissing the opportunity to share the experience of art and music. Since I'm not exactly a harsh critic, it's been little more than an excuse to say nothing. I'll try to be more active with giving feedback to work.

Past that, there's not a lot to say. Life's going along. Though as artists it often seems like we are more prone to divulging the vulnerable or intimate parts of our life, I'm going to keep personal things to myself for the time being. I'm hoping to get more music done than I did last year. It shouldn't be hard; I'm already 2/3 of the way there. Hopefully you'll like what you hear! Enjoy yourselves and your summer, people!


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Posted by Deemo-R - October 25th, 2016


Classes have been busy, or I've just been really lazy as of late. I had to get a Mac and Logic for my classes, so I'm currently grappling with the differences. I kind of let things slide here.

I made a new track, though. It's a work-in-progress, but it's something. Whee :U


Posted by Deemo-R - April 30th, 2016


So, as mentioned in my previous blog post, I changed my username to make things easier for me and others. However, it turns out to be an already-existing alias for a rather well-known artist. I made a small change (-R) to differentiate from it and just let it slide for the time being because I'm such a small fish that I didn't think there would be any trouble. BUUUUUUT, over the past few months, though my name change has seemed very inconsequential to anyone looking from the outside, there have been a few issues popping up:

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This is a sampling of notifications I get every now and again on Twitter. It seems that some automated accounts were fed with the incorrect information that my Twitter handle (@genosyn) is the official Twitter account of another artist called "Deemo" (@DeemoRayark, I presume, but I can't be certain). As you can probably tell, no one has taken the slightest glance at my account to check the legitmacy of that information, given that I have no affiliation whatsoever with the official artist by the same name. I have tried sending a message to clear the confusion, but as far as I can tell, nothing has come of that. As you can see, there have been two tweets in the past two days promoting a concert in DC with the WRONG Twitter handle. (For the record, I've even changed my Twitter name to "Genosyn" now to distance myself from the artist as much as possible)

Though I'd normally figure that these things would settle themselves by the account holders double-checking their information, it appears that such is not the case. I can only assume that it's an isolated incident with these few automated Twitter accounts (because I only receive these concert notifications once in a blue moon), but it's irritating nevertheless. I don't like inadvertantly pulling traffic away from an artist, especially not a professional one.

Looks like I'll have to be thinking of another alias sooner than I expected :T

P.S. Isn't it delicious irony that the "R" to separate myself from the other artist ended up being the first letter of their second name-half as well? Fuuuuuu...


Posted by Deemo-R - December 13th, 2015


I don't use blog posts for short quips or updates much, but just to clear up any possible confusion, I changed my name from "Darkmetroidomega" to "Deemo-R" once the new feature hit Newgrounds (thank you NG overlords). I've been looking to do this for a while, actually. The new moniker is just an abbreviation of the old one, spelled phonetically (DMO = "Deemo"). As stupid as it sounds, the "R" is just there to separate it from other artists or licenses that share the same name. It isn't what I'd consider a "permanent" solution, but it serves just fine for now. It's less of a typing mouthful, and hopefully it will decrease the number of times I read botched spellings of my name. ;P

That's all for now. Merry Christmas (or happy holidays), peoplez. :)


Posted by Deemo-R - November 11th, 2015


It's late and I can't sleep, so perhaps it's time to make a belated thank you to those of you following this page. The total number passed 50 some time ago, and I had intended to write this at that time... but things don't always work according to plan. It feels like just yesterday I was stagnant at 19 followers, but something about seeing how much it's risen just reaffirms my passion for the things I try to do. Thank you so much for any support you have given me, regardless of how small or "meager" it may be. 50 probably doesn't seem like much of a number when 5-year-olds can count that high, but I'm just an average dude with average expectations. To think that I have any person willing to listen to the things I do is incredibly humbling. I'm probably also just in that phase of life where self-awareness really starts to kick in, and I'm feeling the high.

Truth be told, I get discouraged every time I make a new track, because something about it just "wasn't right", or it didn't turn out "as planned". Every new piece feels like a step forward and two immediate steps back. More and more of the minutiae begins to swamp every facet of the work, until suddenly I've piled up articles upon articles regarding the physics behind the human vocal cords (Bernoulli's Principle is cool, kids), and books ranging from recording to the individual timbres and textures of every known instrument. It's an endless rabbit hole. All of this can be tough on the mind. However, though I say "discouraged", I always want to do more once all is said and done. I want to learn more about it. I want to write it better. I want to move more people. It's that sort of naive ambition that keeps driving me to write, and keeps my imagination from clouding. It's still pretty early in life to say anything about that won't change, but I hope to remain passionate about it for the rest of my brief existence. Perhaps it isn't a very unique notion. I'd venture a guess that many other artists, even on this site, have a similar ideology.

To have people who listen to that personal experience of life's progression in my music is something I am very grateful for. I remind myself often about how fortunate it is to be able to share it with such a talented and social community. I hope we can continue to share a lot more of life in our art, and that others can connect with and enjoy it.

So again, thank you for listening and making it worth something. :)


Posted by Deemo-R - June 27th, 2015


It's been an interesting week. I'm currently sitting in a pretty house in Manzanita, OR, where I've been spending the week getting out and seeing what the scenery of the west coast has to offer. I'll be back home late Sunday, where I can finally reunite with my musical paraphernelia (and a decent Internet connection) and churn out some more random sketches.

Regarding the bad news on a lot of people's minds, I was quite saddened to hear about James Horner's untimely passing. I wasn't made aware of it until yesterday, when I happened to glance at an article title on Facebook mobile. Horner was one of my favorite film composers growing up (though I didn't know his name back then), and I still listen to everything he has done with similar feelings. The music world has lost one of its brightest stars, and now the whole sky seems dimmer. I'll likely continue to listen to his music until the day I die. R.I.P. James Horner :(

On a bit more positive of a note, I finally acquired Kontakt 5 the day before leaving for Seattle, and it's given me access to a few better libraries that have been sitting on my hard drive for a long time (gathering dust). Lord knows I've been waiting on getting it for far too long, but it's finally taken care of. It feels nice to have the lock busted on all of my nicer instrument libraries (which I have very few of). Now it's on to fixing my computer.... sigh.

Originally, I was planning to enter the Newgrounds-Inspired Music Contest (everyone's doing it, after all), but I am pulling out of that. I started too late and didn't really like what I was working on. I had an offer for a collab sitting by, as well, and I decided to just spend the downtime that I had here in OR working on that (it's a very small project, I'll be uploading those soon enough). Good luck to all the talented folk participating in the contest! The final album is bound to be fantastic!

That's about it for now. I don't usually write these things because I have very little interesting things to share, but I thought it might be appropriate to share my condolences for James Horner's death and let anyone interested know that I'm not going to be submitting something for NIM. Sorry for disjointed rambles.


Posted by Deemo-R - December 12th, 2014


First of all - happy holidays to all of you out there! I'd like to extend an early wish out since I'm sure I'll get wrapped up in family matters when the actual time comes :)

As sure as I am that few people read news posts such as this, I've been needing to leave a minor update. I've been working with a few friends and setting up new avenues for myself, and all of that has been going relatively well. Nothing major has come out of it yet (and most likely will not for quite some time), but it has given me a newfound respect for various job positions within the music industry. It's also been a great palette cleanser after getting stuck in a creative vacuum for the past month or so. I'm working on a lot of stuff outside of writing little vg-ish loops that I hope will be invaluable to me down the road. Because of that, I believe my output here may be scaled back a bit... not that it was ever that grand to begin with. I suppose the main reason I feel the need to write this is simply to inform anyone who passes by here that I am trying to busy myself outside of NG (as opposed to my previous newspost about being completely available for projects). As such, I most likely will be slow to respond to something "important".


Posted by Deemo-R - September 30th, 2014


For the past month or so, I'd been brought onto a game project to build some music for the prototype. However, this project was recently cancelled, so I'm once again available to work on projects or collaborate. I still have other obligations, but there is plenty of spare time in my days now.

I only have a few presentable audio files from the prototype before it was canned, so I'll probably be uploading those at some point. They're rather short.

Speaking of uploading, I've got a slew of unfinished tracks sitting on my hard drive right now, and I'm hoping to rework a number of these before the end of the year. Many of my next submissions may have been written anywhere from 2012 - 2013. I took a long break from music at the start of this year, so there's not nearly as much content to dig up there.

For the future, I'm hoping to eventually start doing arrangements and/or remixes of other music, but it may be a little while before I get into that still. Remixing is oddly difficult to me, and it's getting hard to make a standout remix of a song when there are already soooo many musicians out there doing it spectacularly. I'd like whatever I do with it to either be creative or very polished. Perhaps even both!

That's about all there is to say for now. Hopefully the rest of the year will be a fruitful endeavour. Have a nice autumn! ;)


Posted by Deemo-R - September 25th, 2014


Here is an accurate description of how I work on every single song ever.

http://mikemonday.com/the-cure/

I'm sure many of you out there can relate.